Trying a New Schedule

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I've been struggling with my schedule.  I have never been a big eater in my life, until I met my husband.  He still says he wants to win a food eating contest but I honestly worry about his health after the Tchoupitoulas Challenge Incident.  He taught me it was okay to enjoy food.  I think we enjoyed food a little too much in our early courtship and I had given up dancing, therefore I put on some weight.  I never felt comfortable with that because I had always been a "pretty princess ballerina", but it felt good to actually eat what I wanted and not be discouraged about eating.  After all, I had to make adjustments to my schedule with a new job and paying bills when we started dating and my natural outlet of dance was pushed to the wayside. 

The biggest trouble for me has always been eating breakfast.  That is the most important meal of the day, after all and I still struggle with that.  I was nervous to go to school and having to force something down to keep me going was so difficult.  Naturally, I just skipped breakfast.  I think it snowballed from there and naturally, controlling the food I did or did not put in my body was the only control I had for myself.

However, I am on a new plan and old habits die hard but I am most definitely eating.  I still struggle with it but I make sure I eat 3 meals a day.  I am so grateful to have a husband that is supporting me through this time of need.

I love how our New Orleans "family" always picks up after each other.  Like you would do with your kids, everyone that works in this system helps to pick up after each other.  I like to rake the leaves.  It's my way of paying it forward and cleaning up.  Right now I am focusing on reinforcing my schedule and I must admit it's a struggle, but I know that my neighbors are helping me by saying hi and waving and smiling.  I smile back and am so grateful for every day that we have in this most blessed city. 

And to anyone who was on the receiving end of my bad attitude, I am sorry.  I was really hungry and was behaving like a spoiled child.  I know I can't take those negative words back but I needed to eat a sandwich in a big way.  I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me.

with love,
K